I’ll be very honest: the last couple of months have been financially rough for me.
Expenses were sky-high. Almost every aspect of my life required me to fork out some form of money: the need for chiropractic care, the need for a new phone, car repairs and maintenance cost to name a few.
And it was tough on me. I was pouring my heart and soul into my previous job even though results were mediocre at best.
All I wanted was a pay raise, which I did receive.
Although it wasn’t a nominal sum, it was still a raise. But it still wasn’t enough to cover all my expenses.
It drained me dry.
However, a better opportunity came recently, and I’ve decided to leave my previous company due to better pay and a better learning opportunity.
The increase in salary has definitely been a big benefit to me.
With this increase, it’s easy for me to forget all the blessings the Lord has given me leading up to this point in time.
A friend of mine reminded me how blessed I was the past couple of months despite my expenses being way much higher than my salary.
During my time of struggle, the Lord blessed me with:
- A second hand, but almost brand new phone that was selling almost 50% off its market value.
- A fully-paid for holiday trip.
- Having enough leaves at work to travel.
- A new company laptop (to replace my personal 4-year old wonky laptop)
- And of course, a higher salary at an impressive workplace filled with talented and capable people.
“The blessing of the Lord makes rich, and he adds no sorrow with it.”
Let me confess to you-
I got so caught up in looking at my finances, and worrying so much so that it impedes my lifestyle.
Looking back at that trying period, it’s easy for me to ignore all the great stuff despite the pain in seeing my bank account going through a state of free-falling.
I felt defeated at the hands of my finances, and ungratefulness took over.
I was murmuring, complaining, and getting uptight over matters.
The Lord had turn the bad into good, yet I was still caught up dwelling in the fact that my outflow of money was higher than my inflow.
I was so wound up I couldn’t see the joy and positivity in circumstances .
I couldn’t find things to be thankful about.
I felt like I was like the Israelites- complaining and murmuring about the “bad” when they had so much blessings and providence laid out for them during their time wandering in the desert.
And, it’s easy for us to slip into this state of self-pity, worrying, complaining and murmuring, questioning “WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO US?” without realizing the positives and blessings around us.
However, after this reminder from a friend, from a retrospective point of view, the tough time I went through had multiple blessings in between as well.
Despite the lack of money, the Lord has sustained me, and blessed me with multiple interesting things that costed quite a fair bit of money.
“And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”
Looking back, I felt as if I was taking the Lord’s blessings and His hands upon my life for granted.
But, I’m thankful that I did not get completely wiped out financially.
I’m thankful for His blessings and providence.
During the time of struggle, I could have chosen to be thankful for so many things as well:
- Thankful to have a secured job
- Thankful to be able to cover my expenses through my savings
- Thankful to have a home above my head
- Thankful to have food on the table every single day
- Thankful to have clean water and electricity
- Thankful to have a car to travel back and forth
- Thankful for a relatively comfortable suburban life
- Thankful for the talents and capabilities I am blessed with
- Thankful that God allowed me to cry out to Him
- Thankful that God has His hands over my life, and will continue to journey with me through my ups and downs, thick and thin.
“ When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you.”
If you’re going through a tough situation or circumstance in your life, remember to find gratefulness in the small, menial things.
I challenge you today: cast all your worries, your fears, your doubts, your anxieties, and your struggles to God. Spend time in a posture of prayer, and venting it out on God.
By His Grace, He will not forsake you, and He will not leave you. Fully trust and commit your problems and struggles to Him.
He will see you through it.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philippians 4:6
And also, there are always things to be grateful for.
Don’t let your negative thoughts hinder you from seeing all the blessings that have been awarded to you!
“Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.”
1 Thessalonians 5:18